Yesterday was a hard day in our home.
School was tough and I demanded more than some could give.
Words were thrown about like rocks…hurting and scarring.
Salty tears were shed.
I kissed foreheads and faces still red and blotchy before heading to bed to shed more of my own salty streams of regret.
It is days like yesterday when I feel the burden of knowing that their stories are being written.
Yes, mine is too. But theirs is still so brand new.
My moments with them are so vital.
The words I speak to them are so important in building them up, in shaping their faith, in molding and forming the people they will be.
But I am not the author of their stories.
While I feel a burden so strong and pressing, I must know that there is One so much greater than I with the pen in His hand.
He is doing the writing.
Oh, how I want to be used by Him for good in the stories of their lives!
How I want to be a character who champions for them, who encourages them and who lifts them up.
I want to be the one loving and doling out grace to these little ones in my care.
I want to be the one pointing them to the Author and Perfector of their faith.
Today as I start new, I am seeking Him and submitting to His Spirit to guide me in loving, forgiving and grace giving to these precious souls in my home.
I am joining Lisa-Jo and so many others today for 5 Minute Friday. These words of mine were written free of editing and over-thinking. They were written from the depths of my heart in five mintues of quite in the early morning of today. The prompt for today was Story.
You’re invited to join in Five Minute Friday as well! Visit Lisa Jo for more details.
Debbie says
I’m glad I found your link from FMF. I love how you wrote that you recognized the true Author and you look to Him for guidance with your children. Beautiful post!
Bethany V. says
Thank you so much for sharing this. Sometimes I feel the weighty responsibility that comes with parenting and as a homeschooling parent I feel it even stronger. I feel so afraid I will break my kids, or lose myself in the effort not to. I need to remind myself daily (sometimes hourly) that I am not the author.
Lori says
Again, I am amazed and touched by your words Monica. Homeschooling my children in B. was a lonely and difficult experience with almost no support. Its great to see you reaching out . Your doing a wonderful thing taking time to school your children and letting God work through you to give your children Gods BEST! YOU! Hang in there Don’t give up! No one can do a better job than you. unfortunately I am proof of that with giving my children back to the public school system for a period of time. Thankfully this year I am given the second chance to pick up and get back into it! Hugs and grace to you!!!!
Barbie says
I remember hard days with little ones. I know that God has grace enough. So thankful He writes their stories!
Mel says
We’ve had a few of those days lately…the kind where, like you, I truly give thanks that He is the One writing their stories. (And mine!) Blessings and hugs to you, friend. 🙂